Every one of us, it doesn’t matter what we look like or sound like or feel like, no matter what we do, what we have done, the plans we have or have had, we are all trying to do our best. It’s about time to stop comparing. It’s time to stop saying, “It should be this way,” or “I’m not good enough.” Stop. It’s a struggle of mine. I so deeply have limited confidence and I don’t know why or where it came from, but it’s there. And we need to stop. It’s time to deal with it. The Not Good Enough. Know that today, right now, no matter what you are doing, or have wanted to do, or thought you should be doing, you’re okay. If God had other plans for you, he would have put them into play. But the ones he has in play now are right and best. So be encouraged in the thing that you are doing, regardless of how hard or easy it is, or how much you feel like you are doing it good enough. You are. So just show up, hang in, and be happy with your best. Even when you feel like your best should be better. Know that you are on the right track. I have felt insecure the last couple of weeks as I’ve been learning the tracks I need to teach for my BodyFlow training. The hours spent learning choreography and notes have made me fully aware of my lacking and newness to the idea of leading a yoga, tai chi, and pilates class. I feel quite out of my element, and challenged. There have been many tears. But if God had something different, he would have put that into play. What is in play is the thing that is. So go with it. Smile with it. Cause it’s the best. And you are the best to be in that role, in that job that you are doing. We often receive and share the reminder of brokenness. Do you feel like you are inherently broken and can never be right? There’s more to life, there’s more to your plot line, than being broken. You are capable of doing great things because of God’s love and power in your life. Be healed. Accept wholeness. Release the demands of pretention. Release what no longer serves you. Release the expectation of perfection. Because of the work that God has done, because of Jesus’ sacrifice of life establishing victory for us, his children, his living body on earth, we do not have to stay broken. Strong. Capable. The best fit. Overcomer. Yes, you can. Fear can be a lack of trust, but it can also be a nudge in the right direction. Consider the source of fear, and not just the fear itself. Ask ‘why am I afraid’? Do you fear the unknown? Are you afraid of letting someone down? (By the way, this is your projection of what you think they want) Do you trust yourself? Perhaps the fear can be the tool to get you where you need to go. Do not fear the fear, embrace the fear and find its root. Because the fear will help you get to where you need to be. The more afraid you are of it, the more you might need to pursue it, look it in the face, and deal with it. We have nothing to fear. The children of God have nothing to fear on earth. Yes, there are times to use wisdom and safety. However, use fear to learn. Learn about yourself, learn about others, learn about God’s sovereign capability. Overcomers. Capable. The best fit. That is reality.
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9/17/2018 05:34:29 pm
Kadee, Thanks for this post. I have been very hard on myself this past year, but then again, this past year has been very hard on my. My mother died on January 2, then a month later I had a ski accident that led to reconstructive surgery on my tibial plateau and a metal plate and seven screws holding the bone together, then months of PT to walk again, then my father declining quickly and having to pack him up and move him to independent living although I still was having mobility problems myself. Thanks to God the worst year of my life finally seems to be normalizing. Despite all that, I am still beating myself up for letting so many things slide this year, not fulfilling obligations, not giving 100%. I am so overwhelmed now with how behind I am in everything, because my priority really for so long was one thing, first keeping Mom alive, then funeral planning, then just healing from the accident and walking, then helping Dad transition. I don't know how other people keep up in times like these, I just can't do it. But yes, I need to keep telling myself that I'm okay as long as I keep praying.
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Kadee Carder
9/17/2018 07:38:17 pm
Brigid,
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